I have come to the conclusion that Cheerios and Diet Pepsi do not go well together. I accidentally just dropped three cheerios in my diet pepsi and I didn't know it until I drank them up a few minutes later. I thought, "Why is this pepsi so mushy and oaty?" It was all kind of gross.
I'm sending out our retreat forms for Steubenville East to a few other youth groups today. They don't have enough kids or chaperones to get a group together on their own, so I'm sub-leasing space in our trip to them.
Some days I don't really know what to do with myself. I have this feeling that if things are NOT moving at breakneck speeds, that I am slacking. Right now confirmation and CCD classes are over, we cut the Vacation Bible School in July because of budget problems, First Communions are the 9th, 10th, and 17th of May at the noraml weekend masses, and everything is done and I don't know what to do. I know in my head it is a well earned break, and there is still much I am responsible for in the coming weeks and months, not the least of which is never ever being away on a Sunday because there is no one to cover the band for me. But now that I am down to a forty hour week after 60-70 hour weeks from September through April, I feel like I'm working part-time and it doesn't feel good.
I know I should take advantage of it and get healthy after being sick for three weeks. I'm going down to Hammmonasset(state park/beach)in a few with a bunch of the teens when they get out of school. We're going to play ultimate frisbee...woo-hoo! I love looking across the water to Long Island.
I guess I'm really feeling a little guilty because I was having my lunch break here at work (pepsi and cheerios YUM)and I spent it on the phone with my sister Kathy because I worried about how sick she has been and I also knew that I would get a chance to talk to to her without the kids needing her and the after school/work craziness where she can never talk. I felt a little selfish because I woke her up. I get upset when she is sick, and now she is moving even farther away with her next assignment in Texas :(. I hate not seeing my family more often. Anyway we had a great talk and she is feeling a little better after resting today. (eeeewwwww one last chewy mouthful of pepsi- I forgot about the cheerios for a minute)
My point is about my working/not working...so we're on the phone and the parish secretary, not Susan my assistant, calls me on the intercom and says I have a call on line one. Which is weird because I have my own line and if they called the main line its probably just a telemarker or someone that doesn't know me. Now I have been on the phone for like 40 minutes and still have 20- left of my lunch hour...but
I take the call and feel so guilty about the following conversation:
Annie: Religious Educaiton Office
person: Hi, I'm blah blah blah from blah blah fundraising (my mind clicks off as we are in the midst of a fundraiser as well as just having completed one) and I want to tell you about blah blah blah blah and I sent a fax to you...
Annie (interrupting) well we just finished a fundraiser two weeks ago and are doing one right now so I won't be looking into one until next year but if you...
Person (interupting): Well can I ask what fundraisers you are doing?
Annie (giving out too much information that she doesn't owe this person and thinking that was a rude question): we just finished up with Yankee Candle and now we are doing Santus Catholic Jewelry but if you...
Person(interupting): Well those are good but if I could send you over blah blah blah what's your fax number I can blah blah...
Annie (interupting back again): our fax number is blah blah blah and if you fax it to me I will look at it for next year but I'm on the other line right now so I'll have to go.
Perosn: Okay thank you. I'll fax that right over...blah blah blah blah blah blah...
Annie. Your welcome, bye.
So then I say to Kathy who has been on my other ear:
Yes, I'm sorry but I'm on a person call right now and I don't have time for business related phone calls I'll have to hang up on you know.
It was funny and I shouldn't feel guilty because although I feel bad for this woman whose name I don't remmber but I'm sure she told me, we really CAN'T do another fundraiser now and I was on break, on my own cell phone, eating my own dry cheerios...
But I was just disapointed in myself I guess because even if SHE had been rude, usually I'm not so short with people. I'm not saying that I was rude, but I did appear rushed, and when people call a church they should be treated very friendly.
Ah well, so those are the things I feel guilty about today, not working unpaid overtime and being interupted on my lunch hour...what the heck is worng with me???
I guess it is just a part of me that feels that no matter how other people act or what other people do, I want to always be 'above reproach' and I didn't think I was today...
Going to the beach to do my job and sign kids up for retreat now :) Yay- gotta love Youth Minsitry...paid to play frisbee
Happy Wednesday
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
This past month and rainy days
I haven't blogged in over a month. I was very busy with confimration, our passion play, the Easter Vigil preparations and then I got the flu in the middle of it all but I didn't stop working. So, that turned into me being very very stupid....and two courses of antibiotics (that had no effect except on my stomach) later...sick with viral pneumonia. I was out of commission for two weeks and just felt a 'general malaise' the sligthest things seemed to drain all of my energy. I'm easing back into work now---only half days this week...and another doctor's appt. tomorrow in between classes. I have missed so much school that I know I'm not getting A's and have had to realize with more than a little frustration and let down- that I will not get through grad school with a 4.0 GPA... bollocks :(
The bright spot in it all was being able to spend time with my family, mom and dad and Maria and Kathy and neices and nephews...and Matt on Easter Sunday too...even though I never really left the house, it felt good to just not be alone. Usually I love living alone, I mean sometimes it can be depressing when I get too too too lonely, but overall it really suits me and I enjoy having all my own space (albeit rented) and schedule and freedom and (ahem)...lack of accountability to any human person. So, I love being alone, but not when I'm sick! There is just something about being surrounded by loved ones that can make you feel safe. I loved just playing games and watching movies with Jack, Kate Dan, Tommy and Rachel. They are still young enough that I don't have to do to much to impress...just show up and pay attention to them and they still love you uncondiationally...I hope that lasts a long time. But all in all, even though it keeps me away from home, my job is really amazing in that I get to do what I love, and with the exception of the drama (which takes a vacation over the summer when CCD is out!!! woo-hooo!!!), I have total freedom and the respect of my priest to let me do my own thing, in my own time, my own way. In a way I think that I'm spoiled because I don't think I'll ever be able to be bossed again!! Not to say I don't have real accountability like the expectations in programming and budget and staffing concerns...but more that, since I've proven my self competent and intelligent (not to mention indisposable-lol), I have free reign...and I'm quite comfy in my little life...and a good sick leave followed by a good thunderstorm is just an amazing finish to my crazy month!!!
I'm also pretty excited today because in two hours I am headed over to Best Buy in Waterford (near New London)to pick up my new laptop that is my birthday (32- ahhhhhhhh 'tooo old..too old to begin the training')present from Mom and Dad for school (and facebook!!). I will now be a member of the internet community while not bogarting time from work...
This may sound ridiculous because everyone I have talked to in the last two days has talked about how much they hate thunder storms...but I LOVE them. It has really cheered me up today. Something about them is so powerful and amazing. The thunder and lightning went on for four hours last night and it is continuing today. I love to listen to the rain, read a good book and just get into a warm blanket (yes - GET INTO- like a snuggie in the infomercial)
They make me feel like my senses are heightened with expectation of something involving intrigue and possibly something a little scary - in a good exciting way...like, "it was a dark and stormy night...". The rain is so loud right now that I can feel the vibration of the drops pelting the window pane next to me...it makes my heart race...
When I did get a few winks of sleep last night, I dreamt about hurricane Gloria and sitting on the front porch watching the trees bend with the force of the wind...I know hurricanes can be terrible and destructive, but they always leave me in awe as well at the power of God's creation and feeling small and fragile. Like the rain and wind can wipe away all of my earthly concerns... kind of like a mental "don't go out in this weather" or if you have ever seen "What About Bob?" a 'vacation from my problems!!' storms do that for me...a blizzard is neat, but a good thunderstorm is EPIC...think about all the great action movies that have made a scene more excting by adding a great thunderstorm....Twister and The Day after Tomorrow (okay those both sucked but the storms were cool...I mean just think of those movies WITHOUT the weather...EVEN WORSE, right?), even funny movies like Haunted Honeymoon and CLue...great thunderstorms! Then there is the Perfect Storm, which was sad because its a true story....and also one of the X-Men is NAMED Storm! Any good mystery film need only add darkness and storm to add to the suspense...think Key Largo...or that scene in 'It's Wonderful Life' where there is the run on the bank...not as foreboding if its sunny, is it? And I mean can you picture Jesus on the cross on a SUNNY bright and shiny day with birds chirping? I think not...
The water gushing from the gutters right now sounds like a river...
Anyway, just some random thoughts as I sit here and not work...
I really like the rain...
The End
The bright spot in it all was being able to spend time with my family, mom and dad and Maria and Kathy and neices and nephews...and Matt on Easter Sunday too...even though I never really left the house, it felt good to just not be alone. Usually I love living alone, I mean sometimes it can be depressing when I get too too too lonely, but overall it really suits me and I enjoy having all my own space (albeit rented) and schedule and freedom and (ahem)...lack of accountability to any human person. So, I love being alone, but not when I'm sick! There is just something about being surrounded by loved ones that can make you feel safe. I loved just playing games and watching movies with Jack, Kate Dan, Tommy and Rachel. They are still young enough that I don't have to do to much to impress...just show up and pay attention to them and they still love you uncondiationally...I hope that lasts a long time. But all in all, even though it keeps me away from home, my job is really amazing in that I get to do what I love, and with the exception of the drama (which takes a vacation over the summer when CCD is out!!! woo-hooo!!!), I have total freedom and the respect of my priest to let me do my own thing, in my own time, my own way. In a way I think that I'm spoiled because I don't think I'll ever be able to be bossed again!! Not to say I don't have real accountability like the expectations in programming and budget and staffing concerns...but more that, since I've proven my self competent and intelligent (not to mention indisposable-lol), I have free reign...and I'm quite comfy in my little life...and a good sick leave followed by a good thunderstorm is just an amazing finish to my crazy month!!!
I'm also pretty excited today because in two hours I am headed over to Best Buy in Waterford (near New London)to pick up my new laptop that is my birthday (32- ahhhhhhhh 'tooo old..too old to begin the training')present from Mom and Dad for school (and facebook!!). I will now be a member of the internet community while not bogarting time from work...
This may sound ridiculous because everyone I have talked to in the last two days has talked about how much they hate thunder storms...but I LOVE them. It has really cheered me up today. Something about them is so powerful and amazing. The thunder and lightning went on for four hours last night and it is continuing today. I love to listen to the rain, read a good book and just get into a warm blanket (yes - GET INTO- like a snuggie in the infomercial)
They make me feel like my senses are heightened with expectation of something involving intrigue and possibly something a little scary - in a good exciting way...like, "it was a dark and stormy night...". The rain is so loud right now that I can feel the vibration of the drops pelting the window pane next to me...it makes my heart race...
When I did get a few winks of sleep last night, I dreamt about hurricane Gloria and sitting on the front porch watching the trees bend with the force of the wind...I know hurricanes can be terrible and destructive, but they always leave me in awe as well at the power of God's creation and feeling small and fragile. Like the rain and wind can wipe away all of my earthly concerns... kind of like a mental "don't go out in this weather" or if you have ever seen "What About Bob?" a 'vacation from my problems!!' storms do that for me...a blizzard is neat, but a good thunderstorm is EPIC...think about all the great action movies that have made a scene more excting by adding a great thunderstorm....Twister and The Day after Tomorrow (okay those both sucked but the storms were cool...I mean just think of those movies WITHOUT the weather...EVEN WORSE, right?), even funny movies like Haunted Honeymoon and CLue...great thunderstorms! Then there is the Perfect Storm, which was sad because its a true story....and also one of the X-Men is NAMED Storm! Any good mystery film need only add darkness and storm to add to the suspense...think Key Largo...or that scene in 'It's Wonderful Life' where there is the run on the bank...not as foreboding if its sunny, is it? And I mean can you picture Jesus on the cross on a SUNNY bright and shiny day with birds chirping? I think not...
The water gushing from the gutters right now sounds like a river...
Anyway, just some random thoughts as I sit here and not work...
I really like the rain...
The End
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